Ellen.

Finally moving on in life! I know what counts and who is worth hanging around for! Its up to you know to hold on because I am tiered… I can’t hold on any longer… It was your mistake and you need to now live with the pain as you watch me become closer to your close friends.. If you don’t like I am sorry but we don’t want to be kept from each other just because of you! They like me and think I am worth having a friendship with! Deal with it!!!! 

I just want to move on now…. 

So when asked by a friend of mine why you suddenly stopped talked to me you got weird about it…. You said you wanted to move on in your life.. But then got panicky and said shit now it sounds like I havn’t moved on… You told her that you didn’t want to talk to me anymore… Then repeated you wanted to move on in life… Just wish you could tell me this your self..! You should have told me if you didn’t want to be my friend anymore… Doing it this way just makes us both hurt even more by the sounds of it… I hope you find happiness soon and ‘move on in your life’ soon but I know one thing for sure… You will always remember me…!

I still don’t get how people wake up one day and all their feelings have changed or are different….! 

I want to blog about something but i just cant put what im feeling into words! :S 

I  never thought a month ago I would be saying this… I suppose its goodbye Sam…. I will miss you I never wanted us to end like this!! I still love you and it is nearly 2 weeks since the split! I know you said that your love “faded” for me but I am sure it can never fade that quickly unless there is someone else or you never loved me in the first place….. I know that you said you did but now I am not so sure…. People tell me that you look even more down since we split than you usually do… I catch you looking at me at the most odd moments… I saw  you smile for the first time since you broke it off on Monday…People have told me that you were talking about me at the weekend while you were drunk…. But you know what I don’t want to be hearing things form others and believing it!! I will just be kidding myself! That’s the last thing that would help me get over you!! I want you back in my life…. I miss you…… </3

I knew that we got along and that we had things in common but the one thing I didn’t realise that was starring me in the face was that we understand eachother . You do know most things about me, you do realise when I am not having a good day but most importantly you look at me in a way no one else does! I know that you love me and that you will be there for a very long time. Today while we were messing around I realised how comfortable I am around you, I can be myself and you look comfortable around me. I never saw you smile often when we were just friends but now I see your smile nearly everyday and I know it’s because of me. Sam, you have made me feel happy again and happy to be myself.